對妳來說，月事是個怎麼樣的存在呢？
(ENGLISH ☟)
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「來了！」每個女生心裡的那聲驚呼，多少都帶點 oh shit 的色彩。
從前我也這麼看待我的月經，「大姨媽」這個名字取的真好，那個每個月上門找麻煩的親戚，妳恨她帶來的麻煩，同時知道這是一場無法say no建立在血親上的無可奈何。有時甚至也化身成那位脾氣暴躁的姨媽，因著自己的不適，找起身邊人的麻煩。
除此之外她對我好像沒什麼特別的意義。就是身為女人必須要承受的一件事。
幾年前我在網上看到一部短片，一位女子在畫面的中央，一鏡到底演繹一個月中，隨著賀爾蒙的更迭還有子宮的變化，簡單闡述在月經週期中，生理與心理的改變，及建議採取的生活應對。
看過這個影片之後非常能夠感同深受，但也僅此而已，沒太放在心上。但其實這顆好奇的種子已經在那時植入我的潛意識裡。後來隨著跟身體有更多的連結，開始聽得懂更多在無聲裡她想對我說的話。我又想起這個影片，接著想：
如果月事代表的不只是每月一次的麻煩，只是一個圓周的一小段，那這個週期的其他地方我怎麼都沒有放心思體會過？
我帶著好奇開始下潛探險，關於女身的奧秘，筆記著在一月中，每一天身心的變化。然後在每月畫出的圓圈中比對著著交疊與錯落的區域。記下越多，發現越多我對體內天體循環瞭解的空白。
數著月亮的日子，一圈一月，一月一圈，我慢慢能夠洞見，這個循環中的因果，還有哪裡是我能夠調整改善的地方。令人感到很有收穫感的是，這些種下的因能夠在相對來說很短的時間內就能收成，也許不是每次都落下善果，但這根本是人間裡難得能夠在短時間內觀察與試驗宇宙法則的地方。他們不是說了嗎？你的身體就是你最好的道場。好像也因為這樣女人不需要特別出家，女身本來就是座道場呀。
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「她回來了！」我驚喜感激地歡迎她的回歸，且用這張圖紀念產後第一次月經到來。🌹
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If you’re living in a female human body, what does menstrual period mean to you?
For me, it used to be a monthly trouble that “happens” and I can’t avoid. (Like many of you, I suppose !) And some years ago I came into a video on internet, showing a woman in the center, taking the audiences to go through the menstrual cycle, experience of hormone change and wave of emotions within our ”month”. Only after seeing this, I started to realised “IT’S NOT JUST ME!” , and started to see it as a whole, the bleeding days are just part of a circle; base on this and the understanding I accumulated about my body later over years, my curiosity also grew. I started to pay attention on which frase of the moon I’m in, and surprisingly this helped me to oriente myself in terms of the emotions and sensibility.
Which later on, also led me to do the charting of my each day in the circle, what happens with my body, my energy level and how do I feel. Observing my moon closely somehow became the anchor that grounds me from the changeable mind and world.
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I made this piece in honor to my first period after giving birth— which was almost a year! I’m so happy to have my moon back!
I will write more about my journey of menstrual awareness practice when the moment arrives :)